my every heartbeat goes out to you.

but you are.

it's safe to say, it seems as though the universe doesn't want us to last. we have a lot on our plate as a couple, and a lot on our plates as individuals and i'm not naive... i know that it's only going to get harder, the older we get and the more responsibilities we gain.

truth be told, i think us meeting was in perfect timing. i know now, looking back, that i was much too fragile to be able to deal with my own stuff, let alone playing such a supportive role in someone else's life. getting my heart shattered was probably the best thing that could've ever happened to me... it made me ready for you.

i am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. that we meet people on purpose, not by chance. you were meant to be a part of my life, and it wasn't until i was completely over my past and ready to take this on, that you and i finally met. everything that's happened, has lead me here... to you.

maybe the universe doesn't want us to last... but i don't want to let go. it doesn't matter, the battles we have to fight, the fire we may have to walk through, the troubles we may have to endure. i know it will be hard as hell, but you are so worth it. we are.

i love you, and as long as we keep our fingers intertwined, we can face anything.
don't let go.

a day to remember.

in this very moment, i feel as if i could explode out of happiness. i sit here in my basement, sobbing, because i am so completely overwhelmed with emotion. it is a wonderful day.

to the love of my life, my incredible boyfriend... i am so beyond proud of you. in a period of 6 months, you have completely transformed your life. words cannot express how in awe i am of you. you inspire me everyday just by being yourself. i hope this is the start of those adorable smiles that i catch forming on your face. the ones that you try so hard to hold back. let them out and let them shine. you've waited 20 long and painful years for this, and your day has finally arrived. bask in this glorious day, seth. i love you, so much.

23.

"no one else will have me, like you do. no one else will have me, only you."

intertwined

this is so much more than anything i've ever felt.

my only sunshine

i know we're meant to be together because i miss you before i've even left.
because when you touch me, i get shivers all over.
because when i'm having a bad day, you're the first person i want to talk to.
because you are truly my best friend.
because i still, after 5 months, get butterflies over the silliest and smallest things.
because i can read you so easily, just by looking into your eyes.
because you are my other half, utterly and completely.

no matter what else is going on around me, and what may not be working out for me right now, i still know i'm the luckiest girl in the world to belong to you.

you've got the love

i'm going to give you my whole heart.
i'm going to give you everything in me that i never knew i had, until i met you.

ps.

i want to spend my forever with you.

i'll be

stop thinking of all the reasons it might not work out, and start focusing on the reasons why it can and will.

there is nothing anyone else in this world could give me, that you can't... because all i could ever want and need from anyone, is love. you make me smile, give me butterflies, support me, listen to me, you're never anything but honest with me.

there's no where i would rather be than standing right beside you, holding your hand... no matter what life throws at you/us.

i love you, seth. and that won't ever change.

this is for real

how do you do that?
how did you just go and make me feel like i'm falling, all over again?

tell me you would take me anywhere

cloud 17.9

i'm fully aware that every single one of my posts for the past little while have all been about one thing... i'm sure for some people who read this, it's probably kind of annoying haha.

but the truth is, i have nothing else to write about as of late. and in a way, i feel like that's a good thing.

i have absolutely no drama in my life. i have so many indescribably incredible people surrounding me. i'm happy and healthy, emotionally and physically. my job - although i still plan on leaving for a better opportunity eventually - has picked up and i'm working everyday, therefore making decent money.

but the icing on top of everything (and the whipped cream AND cherry) is that i have fallen so head over heels, crazy in love with someone amazing. i never thought i would find this kind of love again... and to have it now, and have it trump anything i've ever felt before... is almost overwhelming. in the best way possible.

deep inside of you

i can't imagine how much more i could possibly adore you.

♥

paperweight

i've been this way with so many before...
but this feels like the first time.

honest.

aim snap fall

aside from the fact that it's way too soon to be planning our lives out... promises and forevers scare me. and they probably always will from here on out.

people hurt people all the time. without meaning to, or realizing it. people fall in love thinking... 'this is it... i want this person for the rest of my life', and yet feelings change. that's life. that's love. i've lived and loved and lost. i wouldn't have had it any other way, because here i am... in love again, happier - not only in my relationship - but in pretty much every single aspect of my life, than i have ever been before.

but i know what i want... and what i want is right here with you.

one promise i can make full well knowing i will not break it, is that no matter what... i will always be here for you. i will always try. i will always be your friend at the very least. don't ever forget it.

engine heart

when we initially started talking, i had doubts because of the age difference.
when we started hanging out, i had doubts because you didn't want anything serious.
when we started being exclusive, i had doubts because you hadn't let go of the past.
now that you're mine, i have no doubts at all.

i can't get enough of you.
when you're lying next to me, i can't be close enough to you.

i don't care what you say, you're perfect... for me.

all yours

everytime i look at you, i have to remind myself that you're finally mine.

but you are

you're so worth it.