raise it up

and in the spring i shed my skin
and it blows away with the changing wind
the water has turned from blue to red
as towards the sky i offer it

this is a gift, it comes with a price
who is the lamb and who is the knife?
midas is king and he holds me so tight
and turns me to gold in the sunlight

wasted daylight - stars

heat is a heavy head
keeps me in my bed
push aside the pillow
the whole room just turned yellow

three in the afternoon
we still haven't moved
siren sighs echo
a pulse through our window

i don't mind
i don't mind
this wasted, shaded daylight
i don't mind
i don't mind
this wasted, shaded daylight

pull in the body to twist
the thighs, the heels, the hips
constellation markings
across your body, drawings

telephone rings
but we'll just let it sing
hide out 'til tomorrow
i crawl into your shadow

in the way your hand hits the wave
in between the dreamer and the breath
long beside the bitter of the skin
today won't know when to begin

blackbird

take these broken wings and learn to fly.

cold desert

i'm on the corner, waiting for a light to come on
that's when i know that you're alone
it's cold in the desert, water never sees the ground
special unspoken without sound

you told me you loved me, that i'd never die alone
hand over your heart, let's go home
everyone noticed, everyone has seen the signs
i've always been known to cross lines

i've never ever cried when i was feeling down
i've always been scared of the sound
jesus don't love me, no one ever carried my load
i'm too young to feel this old

is it you, is it me
or does nobody know, nobody see

nobody but me

the grace

in better days i've been known to listen
i go to waste, all my time is missing
i'm mapping out my ending, it's never gonna happen now
these things are condescending with everybody backing down

you pray to stars that can help you get by
and all at once you forget to try
i'd go there if you let me, they're never gonna find me now
my life is always empty and in and out of doubt

you're not coming back for me, these things they will never be
i'm so used to being wrong, so put me where i belong

i'll get back to you, god knows i try, but i still lose
and i get back to you, these days run by, but i still lose

angels say they can make you suffer
they give and take like a vicious lover

when all this loses meaning, you'll never want it back somehow
awake but still i'm dreaming
and never waking up

alone...where i'm not alone

-

i'm only pretty sure, that i can't take anymore.

the background

everything is quiet,
since you're not around
i live in the numbness now
in the background

i do the things we did before
i walk haight street to the store
and they say where's that crazy girl
you don't get drunk on red wine, and fight no more
i don't see you anymore
since the hospital

the plans i make still have you in them

'cause you come swimmin' into view
and i'm hanging on your words like i always used to do
the words they use so lightly, i only feel for you
i only know because i
carry you around
in the background
i'm in the background

words they come and memories all repeat
i lift your head while they change the hospital sheets
and i would never lie to you, no
i would never lie to you, no
i felt you long after we were through
we were through

the plans i make still have you in them

'cause you come swimming into view
and i'm hanging on your words like i always used to do,
the words we use so lightly, i only feel for you
i only know because i carry you around
in the background

'cause f felt you long after we were through

when you come swimmin' into view
and i'm hanging on your words like i always used to do
the words they use so lightly, i only feel for you
i only know because
i'm way, i'm way
in the background

i'm in the background



there's something so ultimately profound about a song that can make your skin tingle.
a song so tragic and yet it's what makes it so beautiful.

liar, liar

if we're keeping score...

cold, cold water

i saddled up my pony right
& rode into the ghostly night
it was wide, wide open, wide, wide open

i left the only home i knew
i stayed alive and i found you
now i take you where the water's deep
& make the air you breathe so sweet

but is it not enough to be complete? please?
let me give you everything you need, please?

we found a way, we found a street
directions sweat under the sheets
& i let you have it, let you have it

but it can be a lonely place
desire comes, desire fades
there's a bright one caught your fancy eye
it's okay so long as you stay mine

& i'm so number one that it's a shame, a shame
that you let other numbers in the game

now i suffer for your hungry eye
oh why must it see more than mine?
it's a light you're after, 'cause light moves faster

but when i ride again into the night
my torch will shoot flames strong and violent
& my absence will remind you of
how tough it is to be in love

& it's not what i think it's what you say, hey
& it works great for you to have your way, hey

but if the west can be a desperate place
you search all day for just a taste
of the cold, cold water, cold, cold water

& if you think i've gone too long
listen the sky will sing this song
as it burns up all the memories
that flow like water out of me