6/24/10

across the universe

i would never have thought i would enjoy being on my own as much as i do. and while it would be nice to have someone to crawl into bed with, i'm perfectly content in letting that happen when it's supposed to.

these dreams

i haven't slept this soundly on a continuous basis in years.

6/22/10

bittersweet symphony

i've honestly NEVER been this emotionally healthy in my life.

6/16/10

the best of times

i really hope time hasn't ruined all chance of us being friends again.
there are no hard feelings on my behalf, and i hope there are none on yours either.

it's safe to say this man saved my life


6/6/10

let's just call it what it is

i would never have been good enough for you.

6/5/10

strawberry fields

i just want you to know, i'm so glad you're a part of my life.
you don't know the impact you've had on me.

6/4/10

on the pursuit of happiness

i want to say thank you.

in the beginning i was so incredibly lost, hopeless, desperate, self-pitying. i was weak. i couldn't let go.

but in the past couple months i'm feeling refreshed. i feel like a new person. i used to concentrate so much on the people i wanted to like me that i couldn't see all the people around me who DID like me and wanted to be a part of my life. it didn't matter to me how many times i got hurt. and while there are SO many other reasons why this happened, i know that this was yet another contributing factor.

i'm learning more than i ever thought i could or would. i'm learning to let go of the people and things in my life that make me feel negatively. i'm learning to invest myself and my time and energy into the people who truly matter. i'm on the path of making goals for myself, small at first... but i'm hoping by the end of the year to have some kind of idea as to a program i would like to take in college. i'm learning how to be alone and not be miserable doing it. for the first time in my life, being single isn't terrible, it's what i need.

all in all i'm becoming someone i'm proud of. there are so many people to thank, and you are one of them.

plans

june 8th - my fucking birthday! i'm old :(
june 12th - birthday celebrations with a bunch of sexies
june 16th - bamboozled road show AKA third eye fucking blind!
july 3 & 4th - PRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIDE WOOP!
july 21st - bon jovi concert with my momma!
august 14th - BSB concert! (bahahahahahaha secretly excited and kinda ashamed)
august 17th - AEROSMITH BITCHES!

all in all i think it's gonna be a pretty awesome summer. i'm really looking forward to what it may bring and spending lots of time with my favourite people.