4/15/13

the boston bombing

i can totally understand the sympathy and mourning for those involved in the bombing in boston today. innocent lives were taken, and many were injured; this definitely calls for love and support for those involved.

however...

what about the hundreds of men, women, and children that are dying in syria and iraq?

i think it's disgusting that people are able to sympathize only with people who are in close proximity to them, or who are similar to themselves in some way.

not only this, but who really knows the reason behind this bombing? who's to say this isn't a government conspiracy? what if the person who planted the bombs was suffering from mental health issues?

perhaps the person who planted the bombs was coherent and in the right frame of mind. maybe it was intentional. maybe it was a terrorist attack.

either way, to condemn someone to hell (regardless of whether i believe there is a hell or not) is the total opposite of what we should be striving for. question everything. look for the reasons. capture the bigger picture.

4/12/13

keep calm and carry on

"i'd much rather be out kicking them in the shins, myself, but i grudgingly admit there is a time for everything.  i just have to confess that i often long for the days when i was just a bitch on the net. it is much easier to be angry than it is to be assertive but not aggressive and fight for rights through the process than tearing down the existing before building the new.

there are many barn burners. there are several bridge builders. there are not enough barn builders."

3/9/13

amour-propre

95% average - dean's list, i'm comin' at ya!

it may only be college, but i'm proud of myself.
this only further proves to me that i CAN and WILL do great in university.

3/2/13

expressions

someone teach me to paint in watercolors!

2/28/13

wanderlust

lately, i have become increasingly anxious to travel. i grew up in brampton, surrounded by boring grey buildings and pollution, and over the years, my tolerance for it has dwindled. i've been feeling this incredible pull towards nature.

i want to swim in crystal blue waters.
i want to lay on the lush, forest floor and gaze up at thousand-year-old trees.
i want to stand under a beautiful waterfall.
i want to connect with the earth.

i can't wait to be finished my program, and save up money to travel! there are so many places to see, and life is too short to spend it in a drab city.

2/26/13

one

like a child
in oversized snow pants and oversized boots
belly up, i give my face to the sky
twinkling fragments of heaven spill from the stars
kissing my skin
awakening every tiny receptor to the cold
tingling and exploding under my flesh
reminding me of every breath
and i am whole


alive

2/18/13

dreams

- adopt a vegan & gluten free diet
- get my degree in social work
- own a trailer that serves as a hot meal program for the homeless, on wheels
- adopt a child from a country with gender inequality
- become a foster parent
- volunteer in third world countries

to be continued.

3/29/12

ascension

since 2012 began, i've noticed a huge shift in myself. a strong desire to be better than i am, and to do what i can to make the world a better place.

i recently decided to start a pescetarian diet, and i'm happy to say it has now been almost 3 months. cutting meat out of my diet actually wasn't hard at all, and i have found since not eating it, that i not only lost weight, but i feel so much better about myself, as well as feeling healthier. seth has even decided to cut red meat from his diet, and it seems he is even starting to feel guilty whenever he eats chicken. so who knows! he may also decide to be pescetarian in the near future, although it's difficult while he's living at home with a family that eats meat like it's no one's business.

i've also recently discovered a very spiritual side of me. i think a part of me has always known that their is something out there greater than us (and no, i don't mean aliens... although i believe that they exist as well), but i could never really connect with that part of me, because society and religion has instilled these ridiculous images and thoughts of what "god" is. i don't believe in some giant guy up in the sky smiling down on us... i think that's kind of ridiculous. i believe in a higher self. i believe in mother nature. i believe in source. i believe in the universe, and in energies. i also believe in jesus (although that wasn't even his real name), and i believe that he came here to demonstrate to us what humankind is really made of. he came here to show us that we are all beings of light and love. to show us that we are infinite beings, and life does not ever truly end. only our physical bodies are gone when we die. i believe that you manifest everything into your life, and nothing is coincidence. i believe that "god" or "source" is in all of us, and life on earth isn't about learning or teaching... it is simply about experience and remembering who we really are. i believe 2012 isn't the end of the world, it is actually the beginning in a lot of ways. we are all about to wake up and remember.

everything is starting to make so much sense to me, and i can't begin to describe how that feels or how good i feel lately.

3/1/12

s.

i love you.
i'm so in love with you.

1/31/12

missing

i really need to re-evaluate where my feelings are coming from, and i need to take a step back before projecting my inner demons on someone who doesn't really deserve it.

i need to let go of these things that are haunting me before it ruins yet another relationship.

nobody is perfect, but you are perfect for me. thank you, for sticking by me and wanting to understand my hurts. i am beyond lucky to have you and i am amazed you are still here after some of my crazy, emotional girl moments. but it just goes to show, you are real and you truly love me.